American Idol

So I'm a devoted watcher of American Idol. I've watched it from Season 1....... I have a few this year that I like, but I haven't picked a favorite yet. The piece Sundance talked about, missing his new baby, brought tears to my eyes. I really felt for him........Can't believe I get so emotional watching American Idol!!!! Anyways, I think the guys did great last night! Better than last week. I'm looking foward to the girls singing tonight. So now on Tuesday and Wednesday night, I do not leave the house!! I can't wait for Dancing with the Stars to start now!!!

One thing that I always think about is my son being an only child. That bothers me sometimes so much. Why not have more? Well I've thought about it...... I'm 38, so age is NOT on my side right now. I've been married for 15+ years now so it's not like we jumped right into having kids! Why didn't we start earlier? Well because it just didn't happen......and my thought was always, if it's meant to be, it will happen and if it doesn't? Well that's the way God wanted it. So why did he wait over 14 yrs to give us a child? I have no idea but I'll be sure to ask him someday when I meet him. I only have one brother who is married but no children. My husband only has one brother who is not married and no children pretty much on that side........soooooooo as of right now, my son is the 1st and only grandchild on both sides. So who will he have when he gets older? This is what I think about alot of the time. I know having a sibling for him would not gaurantee anything, but he would atleast have someone. So for right now I count my blessings that I have a healthy child but this is still a thought I ponder all the time......

Happy Birthday!!

I can't believe almost 1 yr has passed already since this little boy came into our lives! Time really does go by quick. It seems like yesterday that we just brought him home……an infant, a tiny newborn and now he is running around like a little mad man! I think back how things were before he arrived…..me and my hubby would really come and go as we pleased, slept till whenever we wanted, took naps during the lazy afternoon weekends, pretty much did, well whatever we wanted. Boy, what a difference a year can make! Our lives now revolve around this little person and I wouldn't change it for the world. I love him with all my heart and soul.

I look at him sometimes and still can't believe he is now a part of our lives. I guess, still after a year, it really has not sunk in yet. He changes so much with each day. I didn't think I could love another person as much as I love him.

He has so much ahead of him…….I want his life to be everything he wants. I want it to be easy. I try to help him with everything he does although I know sometimes that's not the answer because he has to learn and experience things on his own. Yet, when I think how much he has ahead of him and how tough life can sometimes be, I want to help him in anyway I can. I want to be a good parent and I want to teach him to be a kind and considerate person. I just want the best for him as any parent wants for their child.

1st Official BooBoo

Well last night was the mark of the first official booboo! Paul was sitting so nice playing with his train and his hand slipped off of it and he fell forward banging is little mouth on the toybox. I knew this one had to hurt! I was sitting right next to him but it happened so fast!!! His poor little lip was bleeding so bad so we put a wet washcloth on it and he stopped crying shortly after that. I felt so bad for him cause you could see the little lip turning a different "hurt" color. It was alittle traumatic for him but nothing that a good old popsicle couldn't fix! It made both of us feel much better!

Angels for Amber

The daughter of a good friend of mine has a close friend, Amber, who recently received her 2nd double lung transplant. Amber has cystic fibrois.......about a year ago she received a transplant in Maine, they lasted her not even a year. Her family packed her up and off to Duke University they headed. It is there she just rec'd her transplant last night. She is currently is recovery and doing very good!!! They have a website set up and give constant updates. So say alittle extra prayer that Amber continues on the road to success!!! You can click on the link to the left to visit her site - the updates can be found under "forum" at the top of the page.

You know the phrase "Sometime you just have to stop and smell the roses?" .....Well I've been thinking about life in general alot lately. Do we really stop to do this? I look at how we all get so caught up in "life" that we don't actually appreciate what we have. I look at my son and think.....how simple life is to him......how the smallest and silliest things make him laugh. Only if life were really that simple........ but at this time, for him it is and down the road that will probably change so I make the most if it for him now and myself! So if I have to make silly faces or jump around like a nut then I will! To hear that belly laugh, that true "it's so funny mom!" laugh, then so be it!

Lately I have been reading so many stories of children on the internet that I've learned to appreciate what I have so much more. Not that I didn't before, it just kind of reemphazied everything. I guess I never really paid attention to how many sick children were out there and reading the stories written my the mom's makes it so much more real. I've clicked link after link and read each story. Then I look at my little boy and just want to squeeze the living day lights out of him! I have been blessed with a healthy, happy child and I thank god for that everyday.

So for now, I'm going to live the simple life with him and not get so caught up in this chaoutic world we live in!!

Speaking about appreciating things .......This is the little love of my life!!! Paul Francis, born Feb 23, 2006......We have a BIG 1st birthday just around the corner!! This photo was from Christmas (incase you didn't see all the gifts) and Santa was very generous! Look at those cheeks, don't you just want to squeeeeeeeze them?

Another blog I came across was Meghan's.......what a special person she is!!! The love that she showed this little boy (Ricky), took him in and cared for him as if he was her very own. Well, I guess he was her very own because the love she showed him was incredible. It's nice to know that there are such special out there! You can visit her site and read her story at http://www.littlemanricky.com/web/do/site/home?ID=40560

The internet is such an incredible place when you think about it. The millions of people that are out there and share their stories.....you minds well say to the world. What a better place to pass on the legacy of the people that were so special to them. I have been spending some time clicking link after link and reading such heart wrenching stories. Let's just say it makes me appreciate the things in my life so much more!