I love this child more then I ever thought was possible. I still sometimes overwhelm myself with the thought of raising him. In the sense of teaching him everything I can to grow up to be to a polite, respectable, loving, compassionate person. What an incredible responsibility.
I tell him “I Love you baby” more times than I can count in a day. He just shakes his head yes and smiles. He now says, Lub you mama” LOL……..I could just squeeze him to death!
All I can do is teach him the best I can. But there is so many things I wonder about…….
Is he eating enough?
Is he eating to much?
Does he feel good?
Is he tired?
Does his belly hurt?
Is his nose stuffy?
Is he tired?
Am I teaching him manners?
Do I hug him enough?
Do I hug him to much?
Do I explain enough things to him?
Do I explain to much?
Is he hot?
Is he cold?
And a million other thoughts………..
I think some of these thoughts will stay with me for as long as I am alive and others will go away once he can communicate better and let me know by actually talking and telling me things. Right now, at his age, it’s a guessing game.
A game I hope to win more than anything.
Does the worrying and wondering really ever go away??
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I don't see how it ever will. I wonder if dad's have all of this going through their minds too?
No, It just becomes different.
You get to worrying about school, is he learning right, what can I do to help him? And when he becomes a teen, then the big worries really start. Do I still have his heart, is the question I ask myself every day. And does he know how to say "No"
I don't mean to frighten you, but a Mother never stops worrying. But Prayer is the best way to calm a Mothers heart.
These kind of thoughts are just the heart of a mother. When the children get old enough to not worry so much then there are the Grandchidren so the story goes on and on and on. You just have to trust the Lord and place them one by one in His hands and then just do the best you can and leave the rest to Him. Relax , do your best, trust God. connie from Texas Mother of 5, grandmother of 20, great grand mother of 4 and hope to see many more in the years ahead.
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